Who else
sits up late at night
too many glasses of wine
and wonders about
the meaning of it all

Where to put the trauma behind
move on into a new life
is that possible at all
in such a fucked up world

I just sit
and ponder endlessly
trying to count my blessings
of which there are many
but where can I deposit
so many losses

Wanting to dump them
in a great hole of forgetting
but then moments
remind me
so hard to let go
of all of it

Better go back
to the beach
face up to time eternal
remember I’m still here

There are those
that need me yet!